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How long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?

Fri Jul 24, 2009, 11:20 AM
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Almost Easy- Avenged Sevenfold
I'm rather upset. Not sure why. I haven't been feeling like myself lately. My mom is trying to convinvince me to take my pills again, but I refuse. I hate pills. Especially the ones that make me "happy". I'm just in a ridiculous amount of pain. My heart hurts really bad. I've had issues for a while now. I just... Don't know how to handle it anymore. All of my drawing and stories have gotten violent. Blood is a huge part of alot of them. And I don't know why this is happening now. But. It'll get better. I hope. And now, lyrics to my current favourite song, just to take up space...
Oh, and I love you. You know who you are. I love you alot and I miss you the most.

I feel insane every single time I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid, I`m stuck in my ways
And that`s the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face I may force the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I`m not...
Not insane

(I'm not)
Come back to me, it's almost easy
(Sad at all)
Come back again, it's almost easy

Shame pulses through my heart
From the things I`ve done to you
It`s hard to face, but the fact remains that
This is nothing new

I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin
But deep inside I'm not insane.

I'm not insane, I'm not insane.
I'm not insane, I'm not...
Not insane.

(I'm not)
Come back to me, it's almost easy
(Sad at all)
Come back again, it's almost easy
(You learned your lesson)
Come back to me, it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back again, it's almost easy

Now that I`ve lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I try to hold on as you slowly slip away.
I`m losing the fight.
Treated you so wrong, now let me make it right.
(Make it all right)

I'm not insane, I'm not insane. (chuckling)
I'm not insane, I'm not...
Not insane.

(I'm not)
Come back to me, it's almost easy
(Sad at all)
Come back again, it's almost easy
(You learned your lesson)
Come back to me, it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again, it's almost easy
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~AnimeFaerieDrawer Jul 31, 2009, 3:46:27 AM
I'm not really supposed to be online right now because I'm supposed to be packing for my holiday which I'm leaving for in about 2 hours, but I thought it was time I commented here (even if you don't see this for ages).
I miss you too :c I hope you feel better soon.
You have to be strong and overcome everything, even if sometimes that feels impossible. I should know, I've been through some crap the passed few months too.
Just don't think I've forgotten about you, because I haven't. Like I said in the note a while back, I hope you pull through everything ok >:
I'm on more pills now, thanks to some idiots thinking I'm 'depressed', so I can sympathise with you on that note (now I'm up to 5-6 a day, which doesn't sound too big to me).
*hug-squish* Love you Sky-muffin ;v; yes, that's still your nickname ffff

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"There is nothing wrong with going to bed with someone of your own sex. People should be very free with sex, they should draw the line at goats." ~Elton John
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